In Utero – Nirvana (1993, Geffen Records)
Nirvana are in good company because any of their releases could have featured in this series. We could sit and talk about ‘Bleach’ and liken its raw, punky garage sound to those early Black Flag records and marvel about just how desperately brilliant it is. Or we could pick up our battered copies of ‘Nevermind’ and rave about how that record not only ushered in a (relatively) new musical genre, launched an entirely new subculture but also literally changed music as we know it.
We could even talk about the MTV Unplugged album, which redefined live albums as we know it, with its poignancy, and its humour and its stark bewildering moments of tender brilliance. All of which would be entirely justified but I’m going to talk about ‘In Utero’, because it’s my favourite Nirvana album, although it’s a bloody confusing mess – although I think I accept that ‘Nevermind’ is the better album just because of everything it did.
Pennyroyal Tea – Nirvana (1993, Geffen Records)
Some people think that ‘In Utero’ lacks something special. Some people think that it was released too soon after ‘Nevermind’ (it was released just over two years after it) and because it followed ‘Nevermind’ it was always thought to be not quite there. Some people are idiots though because ‘In Utero’ is marvellous, it contains easily the bands (or Kurt’s really) most personal songs. The whole thing being a sort of convoluted love letter to commitment (and Courtney Love I suppose) and normality. Albeit one that is yelled out across a bunch of songs by a man that was, in hindsight, petrified by the sheer thought of normal.
‘In Utero’ is an album that saw Kurt Cobain at one of rocks awkward crossroads, here was a man who had in the previous three years become the most significant rock star of the last twenty years or so. A man who was in love, had become a father, and a man who had the expectations of millions on his shoulders. ‘In Utero’ did in some ways what ‘Nevermind’ did, it shifted the goalposts. It wasn’t (and still isn’t) a grunge record, because grunge had evolved to include idiotic bands like Alice in Chains, and therefore didn’t want to be associated with that. ‘In Utero’ is at times, beautifully gentle and then before you draw breath unnervingly rowdy and it angered the punk rock fans, it delighted those wanted something more accessible and it confused those wanting ‘Nevermind’ part 2. Although if you only ever listened to Side One of ‘In Utero’ that is pretty much what you would get.
Serve the Servants – Nirvana (1993, Geffen Records)
Heart Shaped Box – Nirvana (1993, Geffen Records)
The first half of ‘In Utero’ is staggeringly good right from the opener (‘Serve the Servants’) to the closing song ‘Dumb’, you get the full range on it, at times (and particularly on ‘Scentless Apprentice’) most of the actual tunes are drowned out by huge riffs, thunderous drumbeats and Cobain’s now trademark through gritted teeth roar. It also contains the albums most accessible and inaccessible moments – which helpfully come in the same song.
Rape Me – Nirvana (1993, Geffen Records)
‘Rape Me’ was like Nirvana lobbing a Molotov cocktail through the window of MTV (back in 1993, MTV rotation was literally everything for a band). Here was a song that was catchy and sounded like it was picked up off of the studio floor when ‘Nevermind’ was sealed, it was perfect. Until people checked firstly the title and then the lyrics and even the most hardcore Nirvana fan questioned their own morals when the chorus sprang up (although admittedly it is most singalong chorus on the whole album).
Side Two is not quite as brilliant, but it is still very good indeed. It does contains two marvellous Nirvana moments though, ‘Pennyroyal Tea’, which remains to this day my favourite Nirvana song, I find it oddly moving and I still can’t work out why. It is the first Nirvana song I heard after Kurt died, so maybe it’s because of that, who knows?
It also contains ‘All Apologies’ which is a sort of ballad – or as close to a ballad as the band ever got – one which did get heavy rotation on MTV. It is kind of the natural successor to ‘Come As You Are’ in that it sees Kurt wracked by inadequacy and paranoia. It’s a great song.
All Apologies – Nirvana (1993, Geffen Records)
‘In Utero’ is a bloody mess, it doesn’t know if it wants to be ‘Bleach’ or ‘Nevermind’ or something completely different and in the end it kind of goes with all three. A mess it maybe but it’s the sort of mess that you can enjoy over and over again